I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
We're crashing into the unknown,
We're lost in this...
But it feels like home.
Days feel like shit.Feeling lousy & down & tired & sick of everything.Of whatever I'm doing.Fine I'm irritable,period.I'm like one grumpy old woman whining & grouching about everything & always dissatisfied.I'm like practically dragging myself everywhere I go,body seems pretty drained & reluctant.
I'm worried bout a hell lot of stuff & its tiring my mind out,which I think I'll hit the point pretty soon if I'm not careful.Ah well,nevermind.I need to stop all this self pitying & grumpy behaviour.
One pretty funny thing today.Cos I saw de wei & alex going up the stairs after school around 2 plus so I asked de wei if they had remedial & whether if was the whole class.Then de wei replied that it was only for those who skipped hols lessons.So I smiled knowingly,cos they forever pon here & there what,not surprising.Then alex piped in,"No lah,it's for all the shuai ge's.Teacher love us too much you know,she wants to gather all the shuai ge's together & xiang shou."
What.the.hell.
Me & wanzhuo who heard this &threw our books at him HAHA.Stupid ass.It's a wonder how guys keep up with their ego & everything.Okay nevermind I dont think I wanna know,gah. T.T
11 july ! : D Keke.Catch up sooooooooon,23.Lunch k rmbr.
Good luck to all those in JC battling with their MYE's now.
Jian,good luck to your tummy man. o.0
Ziwen,laugh laugh laugh.You laugh somemore lah,huh huh huh.Grrrr you.
Richny,oral will be fine dear,have faith daughterrrrrr.(:
I'm thankful for friends like Abygail Tan Li Shan & Goh Weijie & Goh Weijia.For their unwavering support & friendship all these years,through the hardest parts of my life.Much love. (:
Many other friends like Changxu,Richny,Ashley,Liyuan,Lifeng,Wanzhuo,Imee,Lin an,Tinghui,Rina,Kaileun,Jasmine teo....etc,thank you guys for everything. : D
One thing in my life I really appreciate & love?
-The friends I have.
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Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
How can I love you.
&I thought...Nevermind.