I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
But now it's time for me to wake up to my senses,to stop letting you pull me down anymore.Cos I was blind to see the simple fact that everything's not the same anymore.It will never be the same again.Our circumstances are different,we've changed,we're not who we were 3 years back.It's been too long,& I'm sorry I had let myself be caught up with the past so much,the warmth of it all.Now,I see that it's all just a figment of the past swallowing me up,blinding me so that I couldnt see the truth.
3 years is a long time.
You'll always be a friend you know that.
But it'll just never be like the way it was before.
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Changed.
You,me & everything else.
I haven't forgotten something on this very day a year back.
But it's too late.
To someone who'll always have a certain special place in my heart : I miss you.
2nd july.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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