I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
Long day today.Finish school at 6 plus after a long talk with MrFoo.Mr Tan advises me to drop combined science yet again -.- The long talk with Mr Foo made me realise & see alot of things that I missed out.I like his philosophy of life,cool teacher : D Ahaaaa.
He says," Life's too short to keep living your life to other's expectations regardless is parents,friends & anyone.Yes things may seem bleak but if you hold on,it'll take a turn someday.If you ask me whether I would have given up my cca loves,hobbies,friends & social life everything in the past for straight A results instead of a bunch of Bs and some Cs?I would say no.I don't regret it.If I ever get a chance to live it over again,I would still live it the same way cos secondary & college were the happiest times in my life.Besides if you look around at all the most successful people in the world,none of them are academic scholars.Some are even just a high school dropout.Don't waste your life fretting over good results,what matters is your attitude & the effort put in."
You rock man Mr Foo. Tell you again after my next physics test,gah. o.0 Mr Tannnnnnn,wo bu yao : (
>Bitch.Urgh.
> Lin yi, :/
> Stupid Ziwen,you think you cute ah I'M PISSED OKAY asshole!\
> The sight of your irritating,act innocent & pretentious face.
> Maybe it's time to let go of all the burdens.
> & Maybe that way I'll be truely happy.Cos I haven't been.
> On & on & on.
> Unspoken words & feelings.
> Strained.
> Piano comp *gasp. Oh shit.
> All the what ifs.
> I'm greatful for friends like Abby,Wanzhuo,Lifeng & Changxu.People who were always there for me.Much love.
> & Heyyyyy,you don't need a man to make you feel beautiful! : D
> Catfight behind each others backs,HAHA hilarious.
> Eyesore ah eyesore.
> Limits stretched.
> That VJ guy......o.0
> Enough is enough.
> Sorry Shi fu,I owe you a huge apology.
>If you dont go away this instant I swear to curse you into oblivation.
> TIRED LAH FUCK.There's something damn wrong.
Maybe I just cared too much.
You meant too much.
Everything,all these.....
I've just got too much piorities.
& when some aren't even worth a millisecond of my time at all.
It's hard to let go of something or someone you love so much.
...The closest thing I ever had to a safe haven & pure happiness.
2 years back,then.
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All the thoughts that I've been saving.
This throbbing pain & yearning in the heart.
I need you,don't walk away.
That shoulder always there for me to lean on & hang on to when I'm tired & needed an outlet to rest,a short break from everything else.
So tell me,is it still there?
Are you?
&I thought...Nevermind.
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