I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
ANYWAY.
Thanks Kevin for finding my phone & returning it! Smart move,to not give it to the taxi driver.Xie xie ni! : D
Looks like there ARE still kind souls out there awh.Maybe I just got lucky -shrugs.
I hope Jasmine found her phone too,she dropped hers in the taxi this morning as well.Like me when we were rushing for Ms Yap's lesson. ;/ & So my studying plan was spoiled due to the whole phone fiasco thingy so nevermind,tmr again at coffee bean.
Thanks Cynthia for coming to find me all the way from michelle's house just cos my mum called you up.Thanks Abby for making the calls to get my whearabouts.Thanks to Ziwen & Wanzhuo for all the trouble too.Thanks all : D
Below are going to be just randoms again!
> Now I see why Wilberg & Abby get along so well.Same league one -.- That ass.
> I AM NOT AUNTIE OR OU BA SANG OR WHATEVER HORH.
> That drop dead gorgeous guy.
> For the past three years,have you ever thought about how I was doing or even cared?
> ...After so long....but why now?
> Coffeebean is the love teehee.
> Her loss k Changxu,life goes on ayeeee.I'm here! : D
> I uh.......need to go popular.But uh.....well.Ha Ha?Nevermind -.-
> Old friends a long way back 6 years.
> Ashley,thanks for everything dear.(: I miss you so much I have no idea why lol.Our revenge plan! : D & OUR DANIEL RADCLIFFE NOOOOOOOOO.
> Richny good luck for oral on wed,& rmbr our last final oral date on monday night daughterrr.
> The person you love is not your lover (????!!)
> One more time & I swear I'll curse you into oblivation so go away like now.
> THIS MONTH IS HARRY POTTER MONTH : D YESSSSSS.
> ...But I'd give you all I have,my everything.
> You have always been,& still is the best for me.All this time.
> How insufferably stupid gah.
> Lifengggggggggggg. : (
> Wanzhuo cheer up.You know you have to.....& it'll be better for everyone.Take care dear I love you plenty all the same. For all the things you've done for me : D
> Guys are damn wierd when they're high I swear :/
> Wtf screw you Alex,piss me off only grrrrr.You think you very cute isit *rolleyes.
> Kaileun,thanks for the long talk catching up& for understanding.Much love.
> We'll be playmates & lovers & share our secret world.....but it's time for me to go home.
> Reality check.
> ...I feel like I'm can't keep up & lagging way far behind with this time race prior to prelims & 0levels in terms of preparation & mind state.Just.....insecure.
> Piano is all that I've left to keep me sane,please don't let me lose it.
> I just didnt want to lose the same familiarity I had....but it's time to let go.For real now,of everything.
> Thanks Kori.(: You know....yeah.Extra geog on tues with ms yap!Take care friend.
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& Till now then I realise,that it was never really over from the beginning.
Feelings...are still here.
But it's time for me to let go still.
I can't keep holding on to a vanishing illusion.
-I guess I'll just have to get used to the whole "friends" thing between us.
Great.
&I thought...Nevermind.
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