I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
When fear gets the better of me.
Insides shaking.
I don't think I really want to go through it and know.
Thanks Abby,Mr Ng,Jingyi,Sebastian,Wanzhuo,Alex and Cynthia.
Much loves for all the concern and advice.
I'll put through.I have to.
It feels like a never ending race.
Competition is so strong.
&I thought...Nevermind.