I let myself believe this was possible.
That it was,in fact,already happening.
But I'm not going to fret over the stupidity of believing.
Wouldn't that just be a waste of psychic energy?
Another excuse to engage in an endless cycle of negativity?
Experts in the field of human behaviour,
would agree that my will to believe was not a sign of stupidity.
Experts would agree that my will to believe was a sure sign of INSANITY.
...&It was that wretched,misguiding,leechlike parasite called hope.
A maths & SS coming up on monday.Don't really have a good feeling bout this whole prelim thingy.Argh,I never do have for exams anyway.
English prelims was shit,how in the world would I know why the parachute was named as an "Organism" ? Bloody hell.And "Pulsating" some more. Then comp topic one word "Bridges." WHY ON EARTH BRIDGES.Bridges WHAT. -.- I literally stunned at the paper for quite some time when I saw the topic gosh.
Yeah & apparently Sonia Yeo says that she thinks this paper is too easy for her standard.& She told us that this time prelim paper english has been lowered to a normal 0 level standard and if we don't find it easy we all deserve to be shot and then die.
BANG, die.
Haven't been sleeping for a few days...wasn't feeling well today so went home early from usual coffeebean studying.Was supposed to be with Nicole actually but I pangsehed her,Sorry girl ;/ Think I'm just lack of food & sleep,I don't know.Shrugs.Head still feels abit dizzy.
I miss Gerry Gan.& I miss doing film productions & I'm yearning to write,alot of ideas going through my head recently.But I can't.Prelims are here,here,here.And with 0's upcoming...I shouldn't. : (
This whole week of studying has been entirely at coffeebean.From morning 10 am until like evening or night sometimes.Either with Jillene,Nicole or Abby.Had a good long talk with Nicole at LJS the other day after we studied,been a long long longggg time ever since we had the misunderstanding fight & we just talked about everything like that,feels good (: I'm so broke this week that Jillene and Nicole had to treat me bread lol.Yeah bread fetish.I don't know why either don't ask me lol.I think the coffeebean young malay guy is very cute in the way he always pass by me & see me in outside food then say, "Eat and hide,okay?" Then give me the thumbs up sign & a smile.Damn funny.The other time he was like,"He very bossy.Irritating also." Referring to the manager.Rofl.I like the service there overall,friendly people. (: Except when they get a full house sometimes,studying people get chased to really small tables gah. Good coffee/tea + food. ^^ Sadly I don't have the money for it.& I found out alot of shocking things this week,it has been so happening wow.I can finally do relative velocity now btw tee heeee.
I'm online now and Alex just popped up a convo going "Hi!!!!!!!!!!" (Surprising he's even online,he's usually such a pig.) It's 2 plus am in the morning now for your info.
Madness.& apparently he was like,"Why never go out with all of us for the rogue assasin movie today?You very long never accompany us already you know."
...
Dude,my prelims re-begin on monday,yes?
& Now Weijia pops a convo with a smiley face and says "See you!" Then log offline.
...Ah?
What's wrong with the world tonight.
I have hilariously weird friends.
Okay I think I'm just too bored/fried from studying thats why I'm digressing abit.
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Wanzhuo : I'm really sorry we drifted so much & that I haven't been there for you at all to the extent I don't even know what's been going on in your life at all.I'll catch up with you again asap,I promise.I've been too busy with my studies & stuff when I should have paid at least a lil more attention/care,at least more than I do now.You know I love you all the same.Take care girl.
Tinghui & Richny,much misses!
Jingyi,rememberrrrrrrr k. You're the smart one.
With love. :D
&I thought...Nevermind.